I wrote this post in 2012, please click here to read an update for 2019.
All I can say is WOW! This past weekend I attended the Be In Health seminar in Dallas. What a life changing encounter! I owned the book, A More Excellent Way, by Dr. Henry Wright for many years. After doctors diagnosed me with Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA) and the medicine no longer worked I registered for and completed the online version of For My Life.
The first few days after starting the online version I felt great when the teaching was on the Father’s Love and Biblical Foundations. The wheels fell off when I entered into the territory of the specific spirits such as Bitterness, and Occultism. At the time, I was a practicing acupuncturist in North Dallas and had been for several years. I was a Christian acupuncturist and did not prescribe to the ‘woo-woo’ aspect of the eastern religion that permeated acupuncture. I ‘Christianized’ it. I had a statement of faith on my website to separate me from the others. My statement of faith said that the only way to true health is a closer walk with Jesus Christ. I taught classes according to the Jordin Rubin method of eating; I did only the Christian natural things. I was NOT like those that worshipped angels, did Reiki regularly, participated in séances or psychics. I became extremely offended and angry when the teachings centered around Occultic things. Shortly after I completed the online course, the RA became much, much worse which only fueled the anger, fear, and self-hatred going on inside me. All the while I was active in my church, attending Bible studies and even ministering to young women.
The battle inside me was raging. Doctors diagnosed me with Lupus in addition to RA. I went through most of the medication available to treat the autoimmune conditions. I was going every month for IV infusions of biologic drugs along with steroids. Not much fun. I love mountain biking, hiking, running, road biking and most things active however I felt my life had been reduced to being a vegetarian and walking the dogs. Not that there is anything wrong with eating vegetables and walking dogs, it is just far less than how I wanted to be living and some days I was even unable to walk my dogs. The vision I had of myself and the definition of my life and worth were crumbling minute by minute. I tried gluten-free, dairy-free, sugar-free diets, colonics, yoga, juicing, acupuncture, chiropractic, functional medicine, western medicine, and I am sure many things I have not even named. I stopped practicing acupuncture, and the disease got much worse. Nothing was working, and I was losing hope. All this was happening while searching the Bible and knowing that there had to be A More Excellent Way. I was discouraged, angry and very quickly losing hope. I believe God heals and wondered why He had not healed me.
Fast forward to the live seminar for Be In Health about a year later. At this point, the diseases were medically managed with monthly steroid infusions along with the biologic infusions. In the previous year, I had blown through all the drugs available and was on the last option. I knew that I had to revisit this program. I had no idea what God has in store for me, but for the first time in my life, I told the Lord that I was ready to set aside my beliefs and hear what He had to say. I was willing to listen with an open mind and heart which was the first miracle that happened.
When the seminar started, as any good student, I had my books, my pen, a pencil, a highlighter, and a notebook. I was delighted to see that I received a Course Guide when I got there. My excitement grew because we all know that when we receive a course guide, we get so much more out of the experience. During the first day, I was taking notes and highlighting appropriately, like a good student. At the end of the day, I felt peaceful and thought the chairs were really comfortable. You see, I had back surgery at 14, a fusion of L5-S1, so back pain had been such a part of my life I no longer thought of it as separate. My back didn’t hurt at all which has never happened after sitting for so many hours, so I made a note to myself to find out what kind of chairs the hotel had because I must have those for my house. I head home and tell my husband all the wonderful things that I had learned and that we needed to get these chairs we were using at the seminar.
The next day I get up, get all my books in order, get my lunch ready and head out with plenty of time so that I am not late. About halfway to the hotel, I am digging in my book bag and realize I don’t have my course guide! OH NO!!! I can’t possibly get healed because I don’t have my list of evil spirits and God might just possibly miss something that was on the list. After a few moments of deliberation, I finally convinced myself that God was bigger than the lists and the homework that I had completed. It was not an easy battle, but God is bigger than a list, right? After all, He surely would not miss something on the list, right? Class started and I had finally accepted that God doesn’t need a list even though I did. So I just get out my notes and go with it. I have NEVER forgotten my books, notes or homework in any class and I have 3 Master’s degrees, 1 Bachelor’s, countless hours of continuing education and seminars. Occultism and Addictions were the topics of the morning, and I wrote on the top of my notebook, “Lord show me what I need to repent of and show me what I can’t see.” I had repented and repented and repented for all the things that I had done, could have done and might be doing so I felt prepared. As the DVDs were playing the Lord revealed to me that I was addicted to the pursuit of head knowledge and that I had placed my thinking above His. My mind was my
Needless to say, I did not bring my course guide or have any lists for the remainder of the seminar. It was the most amazing weekend, however, I still wanted to know what type of chairs the hotel had because my back had not hurt at all. I kept forgetting to find out.
As the week progressed, the Lord continued to blow away any notion that I needed to have my list. He revealed the sources of the unloving spirit, fear, rejection, etc. I started asking him what the problem was instead of trying to figure it out. I had to get out of the way so the Lord could work.
The final day I asked Him what my spiritual physiology of the rheumatoid arthritis was. I wrote down exactly what He told me: “RA is your excuse for not participating fully in life because of the fear of man, fear of rejection, fear of life and the spirit of fear agreed with the unloving spirits, and you agreed with them and accepted it.” My eyes were immediately opened to so many instances of this occurring, and I saw the progression of this thinking from childhood to adulthood. The Lord is so good and merciful, He loves me, and I am His beloved. Today I can finally believe that I am worth loving and I can definitely choose Life!
The Lord is faithful to His word. I have no pain at all, the swelling in my joints is decreasing, my ability to focus amidst distraction is restored. I was able to fully worship Him in church and I actually sang. I have a freedom that I have never experienced; I am worth loving because God said so. That thought makes me so happy.
After the conference ended, I realized that the chairs at the hotel had nothing to do with my back hurting but that the Lord had healed my back of the pain I have experienced for 30 years. I did not even notice because that was not on my list of things I wanted to be accomplished. He is so much bigger than my list.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. For an update on how I am doing today please click here.
If you would like to know more about my experience, please email me at Michelle@JeweledSteel.com. You can read a little more about me here.